She says 'yes', IT says 'no'
the play took place forever ago
Stop it does not cos its old
Its a game that's played every moment in the world

She wants to call him but IT prevents her
He wants to cry but IT stops him too
IT lies inside, deep down and rooted
Like a tree age-old with roots unknown

Uproot you cannot with force or strength
work with IT you have to over some length
Coaxing and prodding with a gentle nudge
for IT to relent and give you your space

Free you are then from IT's clutches
So you think till it next catches.

Kuch nasha to aapki baat ka hai
Kuch nasha aapke andaaz ka hai
Kuch nasha hamaare jazbaat ka hai
Kuch nasha is dheemi barsaat ka hai
Hamein aap yun hi sharabi na kahiye
Is dil par asar to aap se mulaakat ka hai!

One way street

Walking straight
in my own world,
Unfurling dreams
wishes retold

Meet you I was gonna
halfway in the street
Late was I for the meet?

See you I did
in a hazy streak
long before I realised
It was a one way street.

Veda paus, veda man
manat majhya aathavaninchi udhalan
vedya rutut ya ka tu door door asa
ye na sakhya tu aata mithit ya majhya..

Ek purana rishta

zindagi ki dopahar mein kyun chaya hai ye badal gehra
andhere mein dhundate hai jana pehchana koi ek chehra

badal gham ka nahi ye gumnaami ka hai
albeli galiyon mein guzare bachpan ki hairan yaadon ka hai
ajnabi lagati hai wo raatein sabhi sadak par kati
na naam yaad rahe na sadake wo purani

ajeeb se kashish hai hum dono mein ab barqarar
hai rishta ye purana par har mulaqaat karti hai beqarar



Epilogue.

har mulaqaat ka anjaam judai kyon hai poochte hai wo hume
muqammal jahan kaise mile jab taqdeer ho juda juda

taqdeer jodane wala bhi khushmizaz raha hai koi
aise aise namune jode ke hasii mein bhi aati hai rulayi

The Walk

Walking down the street
I saw a violet
Or so I thought

He stopped by
Said its not a violet
A dirty weed needs care and light

She came along
pressed my hand
An ugly dried wilt nowhere to belong

I stopped strangers
for an unbiased view
Some said flower some just withdrew

I looked at the violet
It still was one
To me, for me.. it was smiling all alone.

The Cheetah Vs THE Elephant

Was it unsettling for you as well to watch the defending champion
puff and pant on grass today? If yes, why? If no, Why NOT? :-P

Well don't you think that I do not like the Cheetah. Ofcourse I love him
and like his game. It is stupendous feat he has managed to pull off!
I mean God... what IS HE on court?! He watches like an eagle, runs like
a cheetah, pounces like a tiger and basks every minute in the glory
of his victory... like the King of the jungle.
On the contrary THE Elephant is calm, composed, dignfied in his demeanour,
extremely intelligent and very very graceful! He is a legend already and an
inspiration to many including the Cheetah.
This is a classic struggle between power and intelligence. I am not
saying that the Cheetah is not smart enough. Oh he is very! How else
could one outsmart THE smartest elephant on court?!
So both are great players no doubt and I love them both equally.
Ok done with the disclaimer. :-)

Getting back to why I am writing this post. Well like I said earlier both
players are more than a match for each other. No matter how much I
would want to see a rookie claim the title I still want THE elephant to stay
the King of Grass. I think it is inherent human tendency to dislike change
... of any form. We want the same person to keep winning. We dislike
the person who challenges established notions. I think this stems from
our dislike for rethinking about our beliefs. When something is established
we take it as a given,develop fondness and a loyalty towards it and it
becomes a habit.And we know habits die hard. So when someone makes
us rethink about our notions, beliefs and habits we become uncomfortable.
And if can generalise this applies to most aspects of life! How sad!!

We ought to change this attitude and embrace change. I think this is no
time for gyan though cos the match is at a nail-biting finish and I don't wanna miss
any bit of it. So long...

Bioscope

A window to the world
A peephole to my soul
It reflects ever the seasons and the yore

Are those trees or shadows in my mind
flowers you think or stars shining bright
Busy people with lost causes
like dark days and well lit nights
I see some foes but friends you say
strangest of places love tries to essay
In a world where dumb stands no chance
I am the one who can't have my dance
Pictures blue green painted outside
strong winds though few can withstand
The window lies to me once in a while
Spice my life keeping truth aside

The window stays put
I keep running, behind
a Mirage, an illusion, a dream well knit?
The gentle breeze sweeps my mind away
to a time and place where everything is alright

Drizzle, Pour, Flood and beyond

Cloudy sky, a hiding sun
Dancing tree and a whistling wind
Pitter-patter falls the rain
numerous thoughts in everyone's mind

I wanna go dance in the rain
Dance like crazy so nothing remains..
I wanna go sip a cup of chai
Meet ol' buddies and say them hi
I wanna go sit in a corner
love the calm and quiet, ain't no mourner
I wanna take a walk in the rain
hold your hand and forget the pain
I wanna go home n take refuge
dodge the splash and escape the deluge
Do you wanna hitch a ride with me?
the han'some guy asks and I won't refuse
Let it rain a lil harder here
prays the farmer in our Kashmere
For hard it is for him to survive
Without the showers once in a while

Many a people many a thought
some set free some still caught
Everyone has a reason to dance
To make merry at any given chance
Life is short we all know
so seize the moment though unknown

Make Nonsense

life is good..
life is bad...
life is tough..
and life is rough..
life is a weird...
life is beautiful...
life is quirky....
life is full of bull

whatever they say i would agree
cos I have been there in the middle of the medley

Bad it is to do only good
and rough it is to handle only tough
Weird it is to have only beautiful
Quirky is when you say "oh what bull"

Unrhyming and nonsensical is this whole poem
How do I otherwise kill time when everybody has gone home!? :-P

Magic Streets

lonely is the night and so is the home
streets of the city I wander and roam
is this my refuge or hell unknown
wonder n ponder while I cry and groan
long is the night but there is a dawn
awaiting the light is the only thing I have done
the wait stretches endless but HE seems unaware
the pain the angst he better beware
for HE has limits in HIS own world
and I seem to have crossed miles behold
worthy ain't I of a little joy... little sunshine more of cold?!
for what it's worth I am told
wait and watch ... n' let the magic unfold!

I am sure it's worth it lest this story be retold!

Madness loves Sanity

So many thoughts come to my mind
your words your smile your lazy walk, when I rewind
tough it is to put you in bounds
gentle n doting... just one of you abounds
how do I then tell you all my thoughts
spellbound, speechless .. have i been caught!
but do you hear the lonely glass cry
besides the french fry...?
see the vacant seat ... n eye's pry?
they all seem to be asking only one thing... where dear is my snugly lion king!?
not for me not for the world.... but come back quick... for simply.. the soul is missing

toch chandrama nabhat teech chaitra yamini...
manaat majhya ka dise maj komejaleli chandani..

tula pahata swarga gathala dharani duur vaatate mala.
punavechi ti mau-sut chandani horapalun ka takate mag mala!..

Catching up from where we left off..

and without a hint of the gap showing.. Its an amazing feeling to do that.

Kehte hai log ke taqdir bata tha..........
Magar taqdir bata kab tha, sabhi to mere haathon mein pada hai!

With such amazing friends around me.. I think I am quite the lucky person.
Thank you God/Almighty/SuperPower/DivineSelf/Conspiring Universe !!
:o)

Deepti- served chilled :-)

I am sure you must have felt relief pass through every cell in your body
after you've done/said something that has been harping on your mind
for some time? :o)
How does that feel? Good... bad... ugly... wrong... right..?
Well... there was something chewing my brains for some time.. today I
finally mustered courage to express it and felt so damn good after it.
I am myself now... :o) and so chilled ...

Kaash....

Kaash dil ki awaaz ka itana asar ho jaye...
Hum unhe yaad kare aur unko khabar ho jaye!

On my own turf

... on my own terms.. but not on my own yet! :o)

Waiting to get back to normalcy.. i mean being alone :)

Do I have to say the words?!

Wouldn't life be so much better if we could hear unsaid words?
Ofcourse it could also make life a living hell but lets keep that aside for a bit.

Imagine being able to read your friend's mind when s/he is cursing you.
Inside you could read the love s/he has for you that prompts the bawling out.
Being able to read the numerous thoughts that go on in people's mind about you.
Someone might be wishing you a speedy recovery... someone might be missing
you so much they would be wishing to miraculously make you appear in front of them..
someone might be reminded of how good you look in that shade of blue...
someone must be recounting all the lost moments that made life worthwhile...
and ofcourse someone might be wishing you were dead! :o) hehe.. Anyway.

So do you think it will help if you could read all the good thoughts behind the
seemingly horrid actions? I think so. Cos then no one would have to sing
"Have I told you lately.." or "You're still the one" or "Right here waiting" or
"Patience" or ..."I want it that way". :o) Life would become so much simpler
cos you would intuitively know the other person's emotions.. wants and needs.
You wouldn't have to threaten someone into expressing their emotions to know
exactly what they feel. It would mend broken hearts and injured ego's too.

Can I stay in my utopian world? Please????

U turn...

Did you say I am beautiful? That's cos his eyes watch me always.
Did you say I wear a lovely smile these days? That's cos I think of his one glance and feel gay.
Did you say I am less attentive? That's cos his thoughts are on my mind night and day.
Did you say I have a glow around me? That's cos of his warm hugs on cold nights.
Did you say I always fly? That's cos his sweet nothings take me to cloud nine.
Did you say I dont look at you? How can I when all I see are his enchanting eyes on mine.
What..
Did you say I look sad now? That's cos no more is the sea calm and the path is fraught with strife
Gone are the days when he looked at me and said I complete his life.

Tujhya sathi..

kalel ka tula majhya ragavnya magacha karan..
disel ka tula majhya chidanya magacha prem..
samajatil ka tula majhya manachya yaatana..
umajatil ka tula majhya tujhya sathichya bhavana...

awaghad jhala aahe saara tujhya vin..
rakh-rakhit jasa vaishakhatala oon..
maya tujhi maj var shraavana sarakhi barasel ka...
mi chidale tari hi tu parat mala phone karashil ka...?

pahaat hotach pahte mi tujha msg aala ka...
aanghol karatana vatata tu chorun pahat tar nahiyes na..
jevatana aathavatat tu bharavalele ghaas..
swatach swatahla bharavatana khoop hoto traas..
duparchya unhat sawali khali bolaavatos tu..
an sandhya kali prasanna jhuluk houn sukhaavatos tu...
ratra matra faar jad jaate mala..
na msg, na phone.. kahich karata yet nahi tula..
swapnat matra khodya kartos faar..
hasavate, lajavate, angi romanch aanate tujhi nazar..

veda man majha parat sakalchi vaat pahata..
tujha ek msg yeil mhanun dahada phone uchalata..

aajchi sakal matra faar vegali hoti
damale hote mi tujhya msg chi waat pahun..
aani man majha belagaam palat hota ithun tithun..
asa he aapala kiti divas chalanaar..
asale tasale vichar saare kadhitari hotech majhya manat yenaar.
yaala tu jababdar aahes asa navhatach mi kadhi mhatala..
pan ya var action ghena malach jamel he mala nehemich hota vatala.
kay karu samajat nahiye...
tu havaayas aani tu nako hi aahes ashya katrit mi sapadaliye..
kamkuvat man majha...
tujhya barobarche don premache kshan jaast mahatvache aahet he janata..
vyavahari man matra... tu gelya nantarchi ratra aathavata...
premache don kshan ki vedanechi kaali nisha..
andhuk shi aahe mana-sarakhya udyachi aasha..
udya chi waat pahat rahu shakenhi mi aajchi raat ekati..
pan vyavahari man majha vicharta ka karu majhya var hi sakti.
tula kalatay na mi kay mhanatiye te...
ki majhya sarakha tu hi adakun padalas vicharan madhe?

majhya sathi mhanun tu majhya kade yeshil ka...
udyachi waat na pahata aaj ratrich paratshil ka?

tujhya majhya milanachi khatri aahe tulach fakta..
pan aaplya ekatra yenya sathi sandava lagu naye konas rakta..
mi kahich suchavat nahiye ithe.. majhya manachi baju mandatiye fakta.

tu bhetalas ki man kasa prasanna hota...
pan tu gelas ki chehra kasa margalun jaato..
rojacha he maran taalava asahi vatat nahi...
pan majha man mala tyatala sukha hi bhogu det nahi..
dwidha jhaliye majhi sthiti... aata tari samajali ka tula majhi maanasik paristhiti?

mhanun mi achanak tujhyavar chidate... achanak tujhyavar ragavte..
aani mag swatahlach vicharte...

kalel ka tula majhya ragavnya magacha karan..
disel ka tula majhya chidanya magacha prem..

And the saga continues...

2007 started with a bang as usual... Didn't have too many exotic
wishes or expectations from this year either. Just the normal ones..
that this year sees me earn a million dollars and that I own a mansion
in Hawaii etc. Donno where and why it went wrong though, the year so far
has seen me go through some really troubled times.

And then there was 2nd of May when I got operated for appendicitis.
Thankfully with God-gifted angels watching over me (my parents and siblings )
:o) i am recovering pretty good.

Wish me a speedy recovery.. I am bored sitting at home.

Finite state machine???

Boredom... excitement... laziness... procrastination...enthusiasm...worry...pain...
affection...ecstasy...ache...indifference...frustration...anger...bewilderment...
warmth...wonder...joy...hope...faith...trust...love...

Window of Opportunity.

Have you felt the same... what looks like a door that has opened is actually a
peephole to the future? One that will guide you through the course of coming life?
One that will help you understand yourself better and help you make the right
choices when you come to the crossroads in life?

Pain is inevitable...

Suffering is optional.

How many people have you come across who seem to suffer even
their imagined pain? Rarely or mostly? I bet the answer is the latter.
So many of us imagine our pain and forget to count our blessings!
We wallow in the discomfort of small things in life, frown at the smallest
irritation that comes our way and scream at the little mercies of life. Why
don't we smile instead when the bus arrives late so we can read an
extra page of the interesting novel... plan our day when we are stuck in
traffic.. or just give a call to a long lost friend when you can do nothing
but wait till the annoyance goes away and gives way?

Easier said than done did you say? Not so I guess. As long as we don't
fret and frown too much about the past or the future we can enjoy the
present. We keep looking ahead at the 5 minute delay for the meeting,
the 10 minute miss of our favorite serial or the total miss of the lovely long
walk with our dog. We don't like changing our plan as often, do we?
I know someone said 'failing to plan is planning to fail' etc...call me a
pessimist if you must but there are certain things you cannot plan for in life!
So why not expect the unexpected, plan for surprises and enjoy the ride?

Nostalgic..

"Local going from Lonavala to Pune is arriving on platform no 1"
Do you feel good as well... to trace your steps back a few
years and see how far you've come?
I was standing on the same platform as I did ages ago, awaiting
the same train with the same amount of delay, dreading the stench
and the crowd (this time also fearing an increase in the crowd strength)
but all eager to get onboard and reach the destination .. to prove
myself.. to me and to the world.

This time however I was alone. No bunch of friends, no laughter,
no fights and no gossips. There were strangers around me and I was
trying to map my set of friends to the current set of people. There was
so much difference.The mindsets had changed and the outlook
was new as well. There was more confidence in the current crowd-
at times to the extent of it seeming as arrogance. The older crowd
was not as much older so I believe India is getting younger! :P
The middle-class Indian has been replaced by a fancier version
of his/her donning a new avatar with designer clothes, a mobile in hand
(and a laptop occasionally) and most refreshingly a smile on the face
and a hope in their eyes. There is a faint trace of the earlier worry and
cynicism still, but its slowly fading away. We have new worries I am sure
as thats what life is!

Anyway,it soothed my heart and soul to see how far I had come from the days
long back.. Reminded me of things I had left behind to reach where I am
today.. reminded me of the hurt of parting away from friends after graduation
and the joy of finding them on orkut as well. Life is amazing... Even with
the pain and the partings.. I am happy as long as I can look back and
see familiar faces smiling back at me and look ahead and see new faces
asking me to join them... :o)

Now showing - Rated "A for adventure"

Driving on awesome (for most part) roads for 18 hours, with a troubled
back, for the first time, with someone who is also doing it for the first
time and the best part ... in a car which was oven fresh, registered
but with no number and delivered just an hour before the journey began..
Have you done that before? Well I did and it was such great fun.
I learn't a lot in this trip. From dodging the devil in the dog to just letting
go and enjoying myself. It was awesome. Wow!
I can now vouch for what a lovely experience such unplanned adventures
can be. So shall we...? :)

Bavre se is jahaan mein...

Bavra ek saath ho... Is sayani bheed mein bas haathon mein tera haath ho..

Goes the line of a beautiful song from the movie Hazaaron Khwaeishein Aisi.
Its an interesting line. It makes you want to get lost in this supposedly 'sane'
world with all your madness and still like it :)

Well, I have been pondering over this thought for quite some time now.
Like one of my friend chooses to describe it "Opposites attract but similarity sustains"
I have been in favour of the first part of this argument so far. I was shown
the other facet of it by this friend. He has a very strong argument for it.
Says he.. though opposites have a fun time initially it becomes frustrating
over a period of time since there is a lot of unpredictability and adjustment.
Similarity however has a knack of growing on you. He refutes my argument
that similarity is boring by giving me emphatic point by point answers. It
seems that similarity brings with it the certain predictability which does wonders
people since they always seem to be getting things done their way. I am sure
it is good for our fragile ego's to see we getting our way in everything.
Unfortunately I am going to need more proof than that.
However I must admit I am now more inclined towards the latter part of the
argument. It might take a cursory proof for me to accept it in totality :o)

First glance

Someone made my day today..... with these lovely lovely 2 lines..
written just for me.. or so I would like to believe :o)

Pratham darshani shwwas adakala.. hur-hur lawooni gelis g...
chukala thoka hrudayacha tu ... ved lawooni gelis g....

In Broken Images

My OB professor from IIMK read this poem out at our gradution.
Read it and find it for your yourself..

He is quick, thinking in clear images;
I am slow, thinking in broken images.

He becomes dull, trusting to his clear images;
I become sharp, mistrusting my broken images,

Trusting his images, he assumes their relevance;
Mistrusting my images, I question their relevance.

Assuming their relevance, he assumes the fact,
Questioning their relevance, I question the fact.

When the fact fails him, he questions his senses;
When the fact fails me, I approve my senses.

He continues quick and dull in his clear images;
I continue slow and sharp in my broken images.

He in a new confusion of his understanding;
I in a new understanding of my confusion.

Uttarayan, Dakshinayan and the joy of un-belonging

Saw a lovely marathi movie on tv today. It was titled "Uttarayan".
It's a simple story well told and well made. (It has brought back my
faith in Marathi cinema. I have never believed more in Marathi
movies more than today! They are so real in their feel that you
cannot but relate to the characters - unlike their Bollywood
counterparts which have high drama and zero base).

Sorry for digressing there but I had to speak out for the outstanding
work Marathi cinema does and is doing offlate. Anyway.
So this is a story of a man who has passed the zenith of his life,
most of it without his spouse and raised his only child single handedly.
At this juncture he meets his childhood sweetheart and life calls again!
Its then about how much our need to belong to society or a community
comes up.. in his lover, in his son. Though the protagonist asks the lady
to marry him she refuses because she has been brought up believing that
life cannot start at 40. The son is furious, again, because he cannot
accept the idea of his dad getting married immediately after his marriage.
He does not want a new mother.. but he does not see that his father
needs a partner. Anyway.. it all ends well. Sorry to spoil it. :)

Indians are actually the most hypocritic of the lot. I am being brutally
honest here (and I might as well admit to myself that I also belong to
that category once in a while). We believe so much in partnership
that we get our 20 year old kid married or worry ourselves to death
if our 25 year young, beautiful, intelligent and independent son/daughter
is not married... but we do not think that companionship is what matters
most at the age of 50! Wow!! This movie hits this very point so very
subtly and beautifully.

In another scene a friend of the main lead asks him how his son's
agreement is so necessary for him to get married when it is he and
the lady who should decide!! That makes me also wonder as to why
we are not encouraged to be ourselves! All our lives in some form or
other it is driven into us that we have to belong to this thing called
society. We should not deviate from the norms that are laid down for
us. We should stick to the traditions and rituals even if we do not
understand the logic behind them or even if they do not apply any
longer. Well.. who is to decide what is right and what is wrong for me?
Everything is relative you see and so I should be encouraged right
from childhood to be myself and do my thing so as to lead a content
life. Except that we teach our kids everything from charak-samhita
to quantum physics.

Well its pretty late now and I might continue my thesis on the wrongs
in Indian upbringing some other day.. ciao.

Dumb vs Good

There take place events and incidents in our lives which make us
look deep into our selves. Make us wonder why we did certain things
or why we didn't do certain things a certain way!

Well, I am currently going through an introspection phase, which let
me be honest, is not exactly working out in my favor. I look back
at the path I chose and the values and principles I decided to live by
and look at where I am currently placed. Its making me feel good to
have chosen those values and lived by them.. but at the same time
I feel I like a complete idiot. There is a difference between being an
idiot and being naive. I have been both. The good part about being
naive is you learn something from the mistakes you make by being so.
But you pretty much can't gain anything from being an idiot!

Whatever the case, the point I am trying to make is whether one should
live by the values one believes in no matter how un-street-smart they are
or should they adopt values that are actually street-smart!?
Should one live life on the edge as one of my friend suggests and not
care about being right or should one try and be right AND have fun?
A very wise friend of mine used to tell me.. "Don't try to be GOD".
He said it whenever I tried to make things work my way and ensure
that I was doing the right thing or that I didn't land flat on my face.
As a results I had huge walls around me and according to him, I missed
out on all the fun. Probably yes.. But I was taking care of myself.
I wasn't hurt.

I pondered over his points and adapted a more fun-oriented approach
towards life. So there I was doing all things that I otherwise wouldn't
have and in general having loads of fun. That was untill reality struck
me like a lightening bolt. In the process of having fun and living every
moment of life rather than thinking whether I am right... I had forgotten
Newton's third law. All the fun that I had living that way came back in
an equal BUT opposite fom. The result..I landed flat on my face.
On retrospection I believe though I was a smart woman I wasn't street
smart and that was aptly pointed out by another friend :)

Looking forward.. I don't know yet which approach I will now adhere to.
I still believe the fun oriented approach is the way to live life.. I probably
need to take it with a pinch of salt and set things straight for myself and
others.

Lets see how it goes. :o)

Solitude

Solitude comes at a premium... which I am ready to pay,
but please let me get some!

Well I recently realised I belong to an eccentric clan. According
to Mr.Shantaram there are people who can never live in a crowd,
with people. The intensity of their affection for someone can be seen
if they let some of their friends and family to stay overnight.. but thats
about it. They can't have more of the other species. Apparently I
am one of them - who can't live with people for longer durations. And
believe you me longer durations can mean 3-4 days. Yeah!!
Ok, it's not that I hadn't realised this earlier. I was and still am very aware
of my limitations (according to the world). Just that I was glad to know
I am not a weirdo ;)

A friend of mine put this very beautifully. He is an extrovert whereas I am
an introvert. He needed people around him to stimulate him while I needed
to be with myself after I met people - to be myself. So he said that he drew
his energy from the other people whereas I drew it from within - which is
very true. Nothing wrong or right about it. It is just a matter of how you are.

Anyway. I have had enough of the chatter around me and would die to get
some silence around. But think I dont have to go that extreme. Hitting the bed
will do. Night....

Up and down goes the swing of life.

It is, for me, an un-explainable phenomenon. Its strange and amazing...
the human moods and emotions. I have gone through a gamut of
human moods in the past few weeks. Some of these mood swings
have been so without a reason and that is what has surprised me.
(Its not the first time I am experiencing this, but now that I have a blog
to vent it out... why not!) Right.. so what caught my attention was today
morning. For no rhyme or reason I was so cheerful and jolly and couldn't
trace a frown on my forehead. Whereas just yesterday I was an irritated
b*t*h.! Some of you might vouch for it.. :)

Anyway, so today morning when I was howling loud in my car trying to
match Bryan Adams it struck me. The contrast. Nothing much had changed
from yesterday and still here I was ... all happy and eager... in stark
contrast to my prevalent mood of yesterday.

Not thinking too much about it... just being... :)


So long.

Sing-a-long........

There's this program on VH1 called..."You are the song!" or something.
(Btw, if you don't watch VH1 from 11pm - 12pm.. you are missing on some real
classics being played every night.)
Right.. So this set me thinking and I was thinking as to which song I would be..
if I were a song! As usual.. I would a medley of many songs :D
So then I thought I will make a compilation of my favourite songs and then
categorise them.. So here you go..

Most inspirational song - "When the going gets tough" - Boyzone
Most romantic song - "When you say nothing at all" -Boyzone
"I love the way you love me"- Boyzone
"Have I told you lately" - Rod Stewart
"Truly Madly Deepti ..er Deeply" - Savage Garden

Best regret song - "25 Minutes" - MLTR
Most sensuous song - "Lets make a night" - Bryan Adams
"Making love out of nothing at all" - Air Supply

Best Introspective/Meditative song - "Coming back to Life" - Pink Flyod
Best Moving-On song - "Romeo and Juliet" - Dire Straits
Most tacky song - "I wanna be" - Bryan Adams
Most desperate song - "Do I have to say the words" - Bryan Adams
"I want you to need me" - Celine Dion
Most dedicated song - "Everything I do" - Bryan Adams
Most uplifting/fun song - "Volare" Gypsy Kings
Song of our lives - "With or without you" - U2
Best sad goodbye song - "Hardest thing" - 98 Degrees
Most upfront song - "Buffalo Soldier" - Bob Marley
Most rebellious song - "Its my life" - Bon Jovi
Most confident song - "Cant escape my love" -
Most optimistic song - "November Rain" - GNR
Best missing-you song - "Like the deserts miss the rain" - Everything but the girl
Best remorseful song - "Careless whisper" - George Michael
Most In-your-face song - "You're still the one" - Shania Twain
Most reassuring song - "Right here waiting" - Richard Marx
"Patience" - GNR
Most assuaging song - "Everybody hurts" - REM
Best dance song - "Hips dont lie" - Shakira
"Gasolina"
Most adorable song - "Can't help falling in love" - UB40
"Simarik" - Tarkan

Best instrumental - "The rain must fall" - Yanni
"Children" - Robert Miles

Special mention - "I believe I can fly" - R Kelly

Hmm.. quite a list. I think now I should get to the worst songs as well.
Soon. :)
So long........

Kabhi khushi kabhi gum..

Par gum ka sathi rum... :) So always stock up rum at your place.. never know what life shoots your way!

Will you be my Valentine?

Almost everyone seems to be in the mood for love today!
Are you too? Join the club !! :o)

So let us look at what various people think, say and do on this day.

There is huge bunch of them doing things that they otherwise
wouldn't. Buying mushy stuff, going fine dining, going out on luxurious
excursions... you name it. People seemingly going out of their way
to prove their love to their beloved. People spending enormous
amount of money to impress their date. (A lot of people also get
beaten up.. hehe :)) This day is planned months is advance, gifts
bought, tables booked, cruises readied and what not. Hmmm... Wow !

Then there's the other big bunch - who hate this day. Not because
they are single or something, but because they dislike the concept
of having one day set aside to wear their heart on their sleeve. They
go to lengths trying to express their angst against this supposedly
"western culture" corrupting young, impressionable minds of the
imported jeans flaunting, tatoo-ed indian youngsters!
I would like to familiarize them with the Indian culture which too
has days set aside for special people. For eg, 'guru purnima' is to
honor the guru and show gratitude.Similarly
'raksha bandhan/bhai dooj' is to show your affection and respect for
your sibling. One of the four days that Diwali is celebrated in
Maharashtra is "bali pratipada". This day is for the couple to show
their love, respect and commitment to each other. So I do not think
celebrating Feb 14 is a crime. But some people do.

As such, I kinda agree to the concept and disagree as well. Not being
a diplomat, mind you. I agree to having a day set aside to openly
display your affection, respect, gratitude, thankful-nesss (?), to
people who by even just being in your life make it so meaningful.
What I do not agree to is the idea that people have in their minds..
That 1 day will make it up for all the things I promised but couldn't
deliver the remaining 364 days of the year! Know what I mean... ?
How can you being nice and mushy and emotional one day of the year
help wipe away your not-so-appreciated behaviour ? I would then
rather have 364 good days than 1 all-out day. :o)

Another word for/about singles. I love people who are single and
love it! I until lately was one of them (and who knows I might rejoin
my clan soon!) :D Well, this day is particularly harsh on them.
I mean whats wrong in being single on this day ?! As long as you
love it that is!! But the world around always expect you to hitch
with somebody and make your life worthwhile!
Why? Can't person's passion be his art, his work or just 'being' ?!!
Well this is a tough pill to make society, especially Indian society,
to swallow. Don't get me wrong. I am not denying that 'love makes
the world go round'... All I am saying is "love also makes the world
go round" :) Sneaky huh... ?

My idea of celebrating this day.. well, guess a single stem of a rose
would do (but would love a room full of them)... a single chocolate
shared (but a handful of liqueur chocolates will go well)... a coffee
is good (but the most aged wine will be more romantic)... a decent
dinner is all I need (but eating at my fav fancy restaurant will
earn you brownie points)... and lastly a hug is the best gift (can
vouch for this any day.. but on this day the beautiful diamond
set would make me feel special for the rest of the year and ofcourse
will make me ignore all your wrong-doings till the next Feb 14th)
:o)

Well enough gyan I guess. You guys go get some red roses for
your 'respective' Valentine's and enjoy the chocolate and the wine !
Tata...

Trying to be regular

Second day of the week. Feels good to be have one less work day :) Ofcourse I did work from home yesterday, so my
ecstasy is pretty fake ! Whatever.
hmm.. I have relatively less work today. Will endeavour to use this time
constructively ( you'll get to know tomorrow how constructive it was).
BTW, do you also find it difficult to say "No, thank you" or "Thanks but I
will pass" ? Well I declined one job offer today and ping'ed the manager
to convey my decision. It was so awkward telling him that I didn't want
to join his project. You know what... I think you feel awkward only when
you are not convinced yourself about that "NO".
Agree? Well yes, we are all conditioned to be liked by other humans.
So most times we don't know why we feel guilty when we say NO, but in
most important matters I believe one should know their mind. What say?
Think I am out of mind doncha? ;)
While that settles... let me come back to this later.

Whoa!! What a ride.

:) Hi... I am back. I guess with my course over now, I have no valid excuses...er..reasons to not blog anymore.
So lets see how long I stay up this time. Wish me luck.