Tu jaane na.....

कैसे बताये क्यूँ तुझको चाहे... यारा बता ना पाये

बातें दिलों की देखो जो बाकी... आँखें तुझे समझाये 

तू जाने ना....

मिलके भी हम ना मिले तुमसे ना जाने क्यूँ

मिलों के है फासले तुमसे ना जाने क्यूँ

अनजाने है सिलसिले तुमसे ना जाने क्यूँ..

सपने है पलकों तले तुमसे ना जाने क्यूँ...

ख़यालों  में लाखों बातें यूं तो  कह गया... बोला कुछ ना तेरे सामने

हुए ना बेगाने भी तुम होके और के .... देखो तुम ना मेरे ही बने...

अफ़सोस होता है... दिल भी ये रोता है.... सपने संजोता है...पगला हुआ.... 

सोचे ये.... हम थे मिले.... तुमसे ना जाने क्यूँ...
मिलों के हैं फासले ...तुमसे ना जाने क्यूँ....

It is such a pity in life when you can't tell the one person you miss the most ... how much you miss him...

Ishqiya

अरे हुजुर इश्क करके दिखिए तो ज़रा,
बेमौत मरने का नशा ही कुछ और है...


- courtesy a close friend

Cracks in the Crystal Ball

Drinking wine and thinking bliss, is on the other side of this
I just need a compass and a willing accomplice
All my doubts that fill my head are skidding up and down again
Up and down and round again, down and up and down again.

Oh, I've had my chances and I've taken them all.
Just to end up right back here on the floor.
To end up right back here on the floor.

Pennies in a well, a million dollars in the fountain of a hotel.
Fortune teller that says maybe you will go to hell.
But I'm not scared at all...hmm hmm hmm hmm hmm

The cracks in the crystal, the cracks in the crystal ball.

Sometimes you think everything is wrapped inside a diamond ring
Love just needs a witness and a little forgiveness
And a halo of patience and a less sporadic pace and
I'm learning to be brave in my beautiful mistakes.

Oh I've felt that fire and I've been burned
But I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned
I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned....

But the fact is that.... I am scared... 

Sadly....

I don't want to lose you
but I don't want to use you
just to have somebody by my side. I don't want to hate you,
I don't want to take you
but I don't want to be the one to cry.


And that don't really matter to anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
and I keep seeing you walk through that door.


But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.


Now, I could never change you
I don't want to blame you.
Baby, you don't have to take the fall.
Yes, I may have hurt you, but I did not desert you.
Maybe I just want to have it all.


It makes a sound like thunder
it makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth,
I keep thinking something's gonna change.


But there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just aint enough.


And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
And do you feel me beside you in your bed,
there beside you, where I used to lay?

And there's a danger in loving somebody too much,
and it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are.
Baby, sometimes, love just ain't enough.


Baby, sometimes, love... it just ain't enough.
Oh, Oh, Oh, No

What a weekend...

It has been.. Bought my first Apple product and my first bicycle!


Well, yea I did own an ipod shuffle for a brief period of time when I 
was at IBM - but that doesn't really count. IBM had handed out these 
shuffles to mark some occasion and so I got hold of one! But 
apparently, it had some flaw (there were even rumors that it was a 
duplicate and not an original, but whatever) and so they recalled it. 
By the time the original or may be a different gift came in, I was out 
of IBM and so.... I lost it. So, technically though this is my second 
Apple product, it is logically the  first one I own (since I bought it!)
I bought an Apple 4G, 8GB Ipod .. for a good deal of course ! :) 


And then, I also bought a bicycle. Again the same case. I rode a 
bicycle when in school, but it belonged to my mom. So I was just 
using it. And then I upgraded myself to a two-wheeler and then a car 
going by the usual teenage progression map (I think it was so, in those
times). So never got a chance to ride a bicycle again!  
But now that I am in the bicycle hub of the world.. The Netherlands.. 
I thought it WAS TIME I owned one too. So started.. the search for
the right bike.. and with my blessed height and the un-excusable plea 
of not knowing the local language (Dutch) to scour the local ebay... 
it really was a search ! But I finally nailed that too and am a proud 
owner of a 2 wheeler  with 18 gears and a basic (plan to refurbish 
later) basket in the front :) 


Of course.. the ordeal starts now when I try to take it to work. 
Having my legs aching apart from my work-numbed mind is gonna
be fun...  Look forward to it ! :)

Love...

Even if I dont speak the words...
when my heart skips a beat,
when my eyes sing and dance,
when I giggle and laugh,
when I shiver and retreat,
Or when I just hold your hand

I hope you hear me say ... I Love You ...
in many different ways... (sometimes not on all days :P)...
But I Do.. Muah.

Itane RaavaN, Kitane Raam

किस रावण की काटूँ बाहें, किस लंका में आग लगाऊँ। 
दर-दर रावण, दर-दर लंका, इतने राम कहाँ से लाऊँ।


The current situation of Indian Politics and Democracy in this country !
Takes another Gandhian to wake this nation up (me included) to do 
something about it !!

On a song....

आज फिर जीने की तमन्ना है....

आज फिर मरने का इरादा है....

:)

Sab kuch.....

सब कुछ लूटा के होश में आये तो क्या हुआ...

दिन में अगर चराग़ जलाए तो क्या हुआ ...

Well, don't you feel that way sometimes? 
When you leave everything that  matters to you behind and 

are running after something that will not stay with you forever?