My silver lining

I don't wanna wait anymore, I'm tired of looking for answers..

These shackles I've made in an attempt to be free..

Just awesome !

State of the world

The state of the world right now is frustrating, painful and
deeply saddening. Newspapers and channels have nothing
to report but misery, sorrow, anger and violence. When
you see  pictures of deprivation and anguish hurled at you
day in and day out, it pulls you down to the same level.

No matter where you look, you see the struggle in
everyone's lives. Struggle to get a job, make a living, feed
a family.. or even to survive!!
Its a tough world... in the true sense..




I wish humankind didn't achieve this advancement in
technology without first having advanced in controlling
their their inner world !

As fast as she can

Have you seen that episode of HIMYM, titled "As Fast As She Can"? 
Ted talks about his innermost desire and how he is now tired of waiting for it to happen !

Then,Stella tells Ted a story of how she once talked her way out of 
a speeding ticket: When the officer said "Young lady, I've been waiting for you all day", she replied with "I'm sorry, officer, I got here as fast as I could."

It's similar in the lives of most of us. We get tired of waiting and at 
times we need someone to tell us -  'She is getting here as fast as she 
can!' 

So, if you want something in your life and are tired of waiting for it to 
arrive... wait a little more... it's getting there as fast it can ! 
Not very helpful, but consoling and brings hope !!

For the control freaks

You're required to take risks. We'll only understand the miracle
of life if we allow the unexpected to happen.
                                                                       - Paulo Coelho

Conditional Love

Conditional love is palpable, tangile and REAL!

Unconditional love is not... whoever even invented that!
How often do you find unconditional love in the world.. today's
or folklore?!

I am not saying that it does not exist.. it does! But it is rare and
definitely not so common that you can find it in your own lives.
It is possible to love someone unconditionally as long as the other
entity is NOT real... is NOT tangible... or is a concept ! It is
practiced by 0.000001% of the population of the entire world at
any given time.Can you name one person in  your life who you
think loves someone unconditionally? Do tell.

Our relationship with our own self is not unconditional. Do we
forgive ourselves if we eat that piece of cake? Or if we do
something that goes against the grain of  our 'conditioned' minds'?
Can we let go of the feeling of guilt when we are disappointed to
know that the gift was not worth the wrapping?! We are trained
since we are born to accept and love everything as it is.. but the
truth is... we are humans! We have emotions and we cannot
betray them. And this post is about being true to our emotions..
to our nature..to who we are. I would like to believe that we
strive to be better everyday..but that we do not hate ourselves
if we are not !

Someone said 'Love is unconditional.... Relationships not'.
He or she was so right. Cos I don't think it is wrong.  If we want
to learn the art of unconditional love.. we ought to start with
ourselves.. by accepting our relationship with our own self...
by accepting that sometimes it just ain't happening mate!

Silent movies of life

Sitting at your desk with noise cancelling headphones is entertaining.... 

it’s like being IN a Charlie Chaplin movie !

Friends....

ना जाने कौनसी दौलत हैं दोस्तों के लफ़्ज़ों में।
बात करते हैं तो दिल जीत लेते हैं। ..

Old one from my e-memoirs

तुझें पाने के बाद ऐसा कोई नहीं जिसे मुश्किल है पाना
तुझे पाने के बाद ऐसा कोई नहीं जिसे मुझको है पाना

Funny is the process of aging...

It helps you gain experience and form your world view and build 

confidence... while at the same time it makes you a little fearful of 

the unknown, holding you back from using your experiences to

tread further on your path of true calling...!

A 10-year-younger me would have jumped at the opportunity of

performing a great role in the warm and colorful land of Spain... 

but the current me immediately calculates the chaos it would bring

and the effort and exhaustion it would take for subsequent 

calmness to set in...

I think I am getting old... :(

New year... new start...

Will try to get out of my head and out of my shell :)
Have realised (and also been told by some) that I am notoriously addicted to,
for lack of a better word, loneliness !

Time (again!) to break this loop... hoping I can sustain this change.

Patience

Have you noticed that the closer you are to your destination,
the lesser patience you have in your journey towards it !

Fickleness of the mind

Forever a search... for the promised land
You believe you can build with your own hand
On and on it stretches... enough
but you will never care
For the fickleness of the mind
is beyond compare

A moment in the present
the mind does not want
The next moment is 
What will always count

So it runs and runs oh so hard
Towards the lovely sunset
that it so wants
But the sun never sets
on the canvas of the mind
And so my dear friends 
It's a dreadful sight...
To watch your friend turn
into your foe
And cause you oh...
never ending woe

If you think you have
kept your foe in check
Forgive me for saying
but it's only a trick

Letting go...

We should be willing to LET GO of the life we have planned...
so as to have the life that is WAITING FOR US....

Its hard to live by it, but you gotta do it...

Need and want

God doesn't give us what we WANT... but he does provide what we NEED!

Sure it is hard to accept it at times...

Collateral

Oh... the collateral that adulthood demands!
Brain corrosion... via decision making.. small decisions, big decisions, important decisions, not so important decisions !!
Decision whether to take a decision or not !

I was never one of those who yearned for their care-free childhood days and had fond thoughts of it or would give an eye and tooth to get it back. Don't get me wrong.. I had a normal childhood, but just that I like adulthood and the responsibilities that come with it as well.

But the irony in that above paragraph is the whole point of this post! I wish adulthood were a little simpler... and touchwood (!) I have had a very simple life so far. But sometimes, just sometimes....
I wonder what it would be like if we didn't have to take tough calls, hard decisions, decisions that could turn our own and other peoples' lives around.
On the other hand I believe adulthood can be simpler.. it is us who make it difficult... and you know why - cos we want to have our cake and eat it too !

So we just have to pick and choose... not so difficult anymore then.

Reality... or is it ?!

.... It's possible that our lives are really just acting out a painting on the largest canvas in the universe!

The Holographic Universe

Life...

I wonder what I am doing on a parallel universe...

I hope there is more meaning to life there than it is here right now !

Am  I going through the dreaded mid-life crisis? Or is it just that I have not looked hard enough to find more meaning in the here and the now?!

The theory of feeling smarter !

I don't think I have ever heard a better explanation than this !

"Well, you see Norm, it's like this... A herd of buffaloes can only move as fast as the slowest buffalo. And when the herd is hunted, it is the slowest and weakest ones at the back that are killed first. This natural selection is good for the herd as a whole because the general speed and health of the whole group keeps improving by the regular killing of the weakest members.



In much the same way, the human brain can only operate as fast as the slowest brain cells. Now, as we know, excessive intake of alcohol kills brain cells.But naturally, it attackes the slowest and weakest brain cells first. In this way, regular consumption of beer eliminates the weaker brain cells, making the brain a faster and more efficient machine. And that, Norm, is why you always feel smarter after a few beers. "

Cheers!!

Dilemma

A quote I read recently...

More often than not, I wish that I were dead;
but then I get scared thinking -
'What if you aren't waiting on the other side?'

I am in a dilemma on this one.. wondering if this is romantic, desperate or down right pathetic!

I am happiest...

when I travel... for pleasure ofcourse, not for work. (duh!)

This travel this weekend was special... not just because it was
after a long time.But because it was my first solo travel.
Felt so good!!

The lines from this song help summarize the experience...

Abhi... mujh me kahin.. baaki thodi si hai zindagi...
Jagi.. dhadkan nayi... jaana zinda hu main to abhi...


Oh.. it was such a respite from the bitch that life has been lately.
Now I know.. I don't need chocolate to cheer me up. I need a trip... to a different place.
Doesn't always have to be exotic.. just the experience - it has to be new!