Patience

Have you noticed that the closer you are to your destination,
the lesser patience you have in your journey towards it !

Fickleness of the mind

Forever a search... for the promised land
You believe you can build with your own hand
On and on it stretches... enough
but you will never care
For the fickleness of the mind
is beyond compare

A moment in the present
the mind does not want
The next moment is 
What will always count

So it runs and runs oh so hard
Towards the lovely sunset
that it so wants
But the sun never sets
on the canvas of the mind
And so my dear friends 
It's a dreadful sight...
To watch your friend turn
into your foe
And cause you oh...
never ending woe

If you think you have
kept your foe in check
Forgive me for saying
but it's only a trick

Letting go...

We should be willing to LET GO of the life we have planned...
so as to have the life that is WAITING FOR US....

Its hard to live by it, but you gotta do it...

Need and want

God doesn't give us what we WANT... but he does provide what we NEED!

Sure it is hard to accept it at times...

Collateral

Oh... the collateral that adulthood demands!
Brain corrosion... via decision making.. small decisions, big decisions, important decisions, not so important decisions !!
Decision whether to take a decision or not !

I was never one of those who yearned for their care-free childhood days and had fond thoughts of it or would give an eye and tooth to get it back. Don't get me wrong.. I had a normal childhood, but just that I like adulthood and the responsibilities that come with it as well.

But the irony in that above paragraph is the whole point of this post! I wish adulthood were a little simpler... and touchwood (!) I have had a very simple life so far. But sometimes, just sometimes....
I wonder what it would be like if we didn't have to take tough calls, hard decisions, decisions that could turn our own and other peoples' lives around.
On the other hand I believe adulthood can be simpler.. it is us who make it difficult... and you know why - cos we want to have our cake and eat it too !

So we just have to pick and choose... not so difficult anymore then.

Reality... or is it ?!

.... It's possible that our lives are really just acting out a painting on the largest canvas in the universe!

The Holographic Universe

Life...

I wonder what I am doing on a parallel universe...

I hope there is more meaning to life there than it is here right now !

Am  I going through the dreaded mid-life crisis? Or is it just that I have not looked hard enough to find more meaning in the here and the now?!

The theory of feeling smarter !

I don't think I have ever heard a better explanation than this !

"Well, you see Norm, it's like this... A herd of buffaloes can only move as fast as the slowest buffalo. And when the herd is hunted, it is the slowest and weakest ones at the back that are killed first. This natural selection is good for the herd as a whole because the general speed and health of the whole group keeps improving by the regular killing of the weakest members.



In much the same way, the human brain can only operate as fast as the slowest brain cells. Now, as we know, excessive intake of alcohol kills brain cells.But naturally, it attackes the slowest and weakest brain cells first. In this way, regular consumption of beer eliminates the weaker brain cells, making the brain a faster and more efficient machine. And that, Norm, is why you always feel smarter after a few beers. "

Cheers!!

Dilemma

A quote I read recently...

More often than not, I wish that I were dead;
but then I get scared thinking -
'What if you aren't waiting on the other side?'

I am in a dilemma on this one.. wondering if this is romantic, desperate or down right pathetic!

I am happiest...

when I travel... for pleasure ofcourse, not for work. (duh!)

This travel this weekend was special... not just because it was
after a long time.But because it was my first solo travel.
Felt so good!!

The lines from this song help summarize the experience...

Abhi... mujh me kahin.. baaki thodi si hai zindagi...
Jagi.. dhadkan nayi... jaana zinda hu main to abhi...


Oh.. it was such a respite from the bitch that life has been lately.
Now I know.. I don't need chocolate to cheer me up. I need a trip... to a different place.
Doesn't always have to be exotic.. just the experience - it has to be new!

Virtual reality

Everyone needs the virtual world of their minds..
A place where the mind can be free... so it can stay bound...
to the reality of the real world !!

Story editing

Apparently, we have something called stories in our lives, that we 
can edit...and change our narratives in life... to achieve the goals
we want, OR to become the person we want... I believe in it.. 
only,I call them life-scripts. 

Couple of years back, I believed I needed to change my life script. 
I met many a failures on the path of love.. (no other aspect, just 
love.All brilliant, genius people have trouble with emotions and 
love you say?! You may be right!! ).. and ever the optimistic still 
believing in finding ever lasting love and happiness and a full, 
complete life (still minus kids!).. I think I changed something in 
me (that I still can't put a finger on)... that led me to the happy 
self that I am today ! (Far from being complete yet !) 
I let go of the baggage, of the emotional burden that I was 
carrying (or so I thought) and paved my way to a path strewn with
roses and thorns (I was, and still am the realist!)...and found 
myself blissful in the arms of my husband !!

When I started reading this book called 'Redirect' by Timothy 
Wilson.. I revisited my theory and my experiments. I still don't 
know what I did and whether I did it right... but the results d
show that editing our life scripts works...and that it is possible
to change the way the world appears if you can change your 
rose-tinted glasses with the ones that give you your own shade
of the world.

Hopefully soon, I will stop the blind experiments and be able 
to live my life in a scientifically controlled experimented way...
kidding...Ofcourse, I would like to know what I changed and 
how the outcome shaped itself..but I still like mystery and 
would like to keep my life uncontrollably enjoyable !

Date with myself

Soon these will be rare

Far and few in between..

Will have to sneak them in somewhere 

To re-acquaint with my own intimate mean..

Might visit the quite-known world of guilt

No matter, will be true.

Cos as much as I love being in love and being with hubby dearest...

I love myself too !! 

Power

Power... is an intoxicant.
It is easy to get addicted to it..

Every relationship is run by the one who owns the power in it.
Cos it is easy to know when you are the one owning it...
And unfortunately it is owned by the person who is least involved in it.

The tricky part is to maintain the balance.. something everyone
struggles with at some point or the other.

Better late than never...

Der lagi lekin...

Maine ab hai jeena seekh liya

Jaise bhi ho' din..

Maine ab hai jeena seekh liya

Ab maine...

Yeh jaana hai, khushi hai kya, gham kya...

Dono hi, do pal ki hai ruutein,

Na yeh thehre na ruke,

Zindagi, do rangon se bane

Ab roothe, ab mane,

Yehi to hai, yehi to hai, yahaan...

Der lagi lekin...

Maine ab hai jeena seekh liya

Aansuon ke bin...

Maine ab hai jeena seekh liya

Ab maine...

Yeh jaana hai kise kahoon apna

Hai koi, jo yeh mujhse keh gaya

Yeh kahaan tu reh gaya...

Zindagi to jaise kaaravaan

Tu hai tanhaa kab yahaan...

Sabhi to hai, sabhi to hai yahaan.... 

Relationships and their truths

Life somehow changes when you formalize your relationship...
Fact of life... the sad truth.

You meet someone interesting, you take it forward with your own pretenses,
you get into a commitment with some false promises (even of your own)....

Then when the honeymoon is over... sooner or later... you face the reality ! 

I, for one, have realized, that I want to be with someone who is somebody's husband first
and then somebody's son... Not the other way round !!

Until I met her

I never knew 
what loneliness meant
Until I met her
And I still don't know
what loneliness means
coz she never left my side

I never knew 
what fear meant
Until I met her
And I still don't know
what fear means
coz therez nothing to fear
with her by my side

I never knew
how to Love
Until she taught me
She taught me 
to love without fear
of being alone
and for this 
I love her more

Yaariyan

Awesome Sunidhi Chauhan in this unplugged version.

Alvida yaara alvida
Ho rahe tumse hum judaa
Le chale saare gham tere
Khush rahe yaara tu sadaa

Tumse bhi zyada hongi
Ab yaadein pyaariyan
Hum dono ki hain apni apni lachariyaan
Ab hanste hanste tumpe le khushiyaan vaariyaan

Marz bhi hain deti
Chain bhi hain deti
Dard bhi hain deti
Jaan bhi hain leti
Yaariyaan Woh o..
Na chhode yaariyaan
Woh oh oh...

Ab jeene ko jaane ko, na koi raasta
Tanhaaiyon se hoga, ab dil ka vaasta
Hum khud hi khud ko, ab to kar denge laapata

Ab tum hi ho....

हम तेरे बिन अब  रेह नहीं सकते, तेरे बिना क्या वज़ूद मेरा।
तुझसे जुदा  गर हो जाएँगे तो खुदसे ही हो जाएँगे जुदा।।

तेरा मेरा रिश्ता है कैसा, इक पल दूर  गवारा नहीं
तेरे लिए हर रोज़ है जीते तुझको दिया मेरा वक़्त सभी।।
कोई लम्हा मेरा न हो तेरे बिना, हर सांस पे नाम तेरा . . .
क्यूँकि तुम ही हो. . अब तुम ही हो. .  ज़िन्दगी अब तुम ही हो…
चैन भी. .  मेरा दर्द भी. .  मेरी आशिक़ी अब तुम ही हो।।

Arijit Singh... the new kid on the block.. unconventional voice and a passion for music.. treat to the ears !

Letters from the Diary

are truly soothing... going through past thoughts, emotions and mindsets,
you realise how far you've come and how farther you can go.

Its so soothing going through old blog posts (mostly ;) ) .. 
I hope to continue .. and hope to be true to my emotions ..
jotting them down on a paper on the internet isn't easy.. but I'll try.